Confessions of a Geek in Denial

Dilemma. Whenever i think of this word it reminds me of the cheesy R&B hit by Nelly. This morning however I wasn’t reminiscing my first year at uni when the the song repeatedly was played at the student bar.

Why do we face dilemmas?

Dilemmas for me represent a choice. A choice which either option will have equally good and bad consequences. Making the choice will commit yourself to a course of actions which you will cannot reverse. Once the decision is made you won’t be able to face the dilemma again.

I wonder how much of our own dilemmas are self-imposed. How many are easy decisions, just we express reluctance in making them. Perhaps the state of dilemma is like limbo, just a decision must be made.

I wonder if facing a dilemma is actually a desirable position to be in. Faced with a choice between two paths, I think it is more desirable to do nothing. And by doing nothing, have you solved thedilemma? In which case is there always a third choice? Can we just choose to do nothing?

So are dilemma’s just mental-illusions? Is a dilemma a normal decision just blown up out of proportion. What makes these decisions any different from the ones which we face every day?

Retrospect adds a new dimension to dilemmas. Often when looking back at the decisions I’ve made I’ve wondered was it really as important as it seemed at the time. Thinking about it the most important decisions I’ve made in my experience are the ones which I haven’t spent time deliberating over. It seems that all the important decisions I’ve made haven’t been a choice because I’ve known instinctively which is the right path.

So dilemmas I think are a waste of time. Time is the real winner. The important decisions you make today aren’t the ones which you will consider at great depth.

Of course thinking this places faith in the ability to naturally make the right choice.

• “St Pancras was listed Grade 1, 10 days before it was due to be demolished and redeveloped as a sports hall and social housing.” I’ve always throught that St Pancras was one of the most visually impressive buildings in London. I didn’t know that it came very close to being demolished.
• The film The Golden Compass is being released on the 7th December. At the web site you can discover what daemon you are and then see if your friends agree. If they don’t the daemon changes. Have a look at mine.

l’ve just spent the last few days visiting my little sister in Bournemouth where she is at uni. I combined visiting her with enterin another 10km race. What I thought, from the race map, was a flat course turned out to have much more of an incline than I expected. When thinking of the seaside I generally assume flat land, not cliffs!

The first 5km of the race was nice and flat. Unfortunately this lulls you into a false pace and by the end of th 5km stretch I was starting to feel a bit weary and the faster, fitter runners started to pull away from me. The start of an unfortunate pattern which saw a lot more people pass me!

There seemed to be a lot more club runners at this event this time. Something, that as an individual entering, I find quite intimidating. To me anyone in a club vest takes their running very seriously. There were even people with customised running shirts.

It made me wonder if I should join a club and surcome to being one of them!

Update: I managed to get a P.B. time of 43 minutes 22 seconds